My last blog post was a good 6 months ago, which I regret very much. Actually, the year 2024 initially started promisingly for me personally, but in June of that year, my mother was diagnosed with bone or, rather, bone marrow cancer. From that point on, nothing was the same. I decided that I would support my mother in everything I could. This meant that I put all private and professional matters on hold for the time being. Many of you have probably suffered a similar fate or are still in the middle of it, so I won’t go into too much detail here. But as usual in such cases, the whole thing starts with being sent from one doctor to another after such a diagnosis, and since my mother was no longer able to drive a car herself shortly after the diagnosis, I took over. Then it went on to the fact that she was constantly receiving a new medication plan from the doctors and clinics, which meant that I also took care of her daily medication. At the beginning, she was in the clinic for 2 weeks and then back home for 1 to 2 weeks, but the intervals between hospital stays became increasingly shorter and more frequent. She received the complete package, starting with surgery, radiation and chemotherapy. In the end, it was a constant in and out of the hospital and a huge struggle for her and me until she died a few weeks ago.

I had a very good relationship with my mother and so it was natural for me to put everything else in my private and professional life on hold in order to be there for her during this difficult time and to take care of her as best I could. Every decision I made in the last six months was very difficult for me, because I had to take on more and more tasks and make far-reaching decisions as my mother was no longer able to independently take care of the simplest things like her banking, apartment or administrative matters after just a few weeks. Some of you are probably familiar with this… from one day to the next, you are not only responsible for your own life, but also for someone else’s.

But I don’t want to complain, because she died without suffering for too long and almost painlessly due to morphine at the clinic at 9:00 a.m. sharp.

Of course, life has to go on for me and return to normal after a certain time. Therefore, I will now devote more of my time to my art and complete various projects that I have started. This will certainly not happen overnight, because I have to get used to the individual projects again and also have forgotten a lot due to the complete 6-month abstinence from 3ds Max, Blender and Co. or to regain my good old workflow. Therefore, I ask you to be patient until I am back to 100%.

Despite all the sadness, I am happy to be able to make 3D art again and to get back into it. Thank you for your loyalty and I look forward to seeing you. In the next few days, I will write another article about how the individual projects I have started are progressing and what the current state of affairs is.